Courtney Love Details Doctors Telling Her She ‘Was Going to Die’ in 2019: ‘My Body Just Exploded’

Courtney Love is detailing a scary health battle that she previously kept quiet from the public.

In an Instagram post shared on Friday, August 14, Love, 62, said she “almost died” in 2019 and doctors warned her that she may not make it.

The musician recalled the health scare as she gave an update on her latest record.

“A lot of you asking on my record is at. It’s done. It’s kind of been done. It’s a really good record. I put a lot into it,” she said. “I went to England in 2019, and when I went there, you know, my body just exploded. It just exploded, and I was in hospitals a lot. I almost died. I lost all my hair. I was about 100 pounds, and they told me I was going to die, and I didn’t believe them.”

In the video, Love drew parallels to her childhood, explaining why she refused to believe what the doctors were saying to her.

“When I was a kid — I think this record is about this — I used to like, pattern-interrupt the adults, and they’d tell me ‘red.’ They’d say ‘red was blue,’ and then I’d see blue, but blue was blue,” Love said. “So now that I gaslight myself that maybe, maybe they were right and red was blue, and then I would see purple, and my head would explode. Like f**king cope with that sh*t, right? I think some of you can relate to that. And then, anyway, I never really lost my ability to see that f**king that ‘red was red,’ despite them telling me that ‘red was blue.’

Love continued, “And so when they said you’re gonna die, I just didn’t believe them. And somehow I got better. I’m healthy, which is amazing.”

The Hole front woman noted that she “wasn’t public about being sick” at the time and did not detail what caused her health woes.

Love added that she “was fine now” and asked her fans to be patient when it came to her music’s release.

In the post’s caption, Love shared her desire to perform her music now that she is on the mend.

“I wanted to give you an update on my record. When I made it, I believed this was my last record so I made the record I always wanted to make. I was in the hospital mostly but when I wasn’t all I did was write & record it,” she wrote. “I want to tour more than anything. & I want to sing . That’s what keeps my soul & body happy.”